If there was ever a different, better, over-the-moon-happiness I ever felt for Raya in my entire life, this year's would be it.

Of course, some things just never changed; but the beauty of the emerging the two worlds between immaturity and stepping into the adulthood is simply breathtaking. I drove all the way to Penang for the first time, I bought only ONE baju for Raya for the first time, I bought kuih raya for home so that Mum could spend her money somewhere else she really wants, I brought my little brother beraya with me and my friends for the first time (he's lone ranger like that lol), I FREAKING TAUGHT HIM HOW TO DRIVE, I drove all the way back from Penang to Bangi for the first time!

And I brought Mum along to let her see the town I've been living in for the past 8 months.

Tell me how that's no maturity HAHA.

But jokes aside, really, Alhamdulillah.

 With some of the relatives

 And our Raya ritual, beraya at Farah's house.
Couldn't be happier to see Syena who's expecting her first child sometime next year. Gosh, how do you act when you see your bestfriend who's pregnant for the first time?! I kept touching her belly and asked, "do you feel anything??" 

*slaps face*

Super weird. But so so happy for the couple :)

Moving on from obsessing with her belly, I diverted my attention to Farah's new cat, latest addition to the clan.


This was a few days after Raya, so please excuse the eyebags. Sister made me help her with her wedding preparations till midnight and I gladly said yes; obviously under a heavy influence of super sweet kuih raya and delish ketupat.

Over the years, I realize the important things that made me human again - and it's true, finding yourself through Ramadan is the most beautiful thing and feeling, ever. I never thought I'd experience those feelings; being the non-perfect Muslim that I am, just to feel thankful to God is serene enough for me. 

InsyaAllah, the next Ramadan and Raya will be better for us.

When I applied for my Raya leave, I made a silent vow to myself NOT to turn on my laptop during my 1-week Raya leave.

I thought 1 week isn't overestimated. Boy, was I wrong.

It's the 5th day of raya and here I am, writing to you.

And I'm proud to announce that I drove all the way from KL to Penang by myself for the first time!! *pats back* Okay so that by myself part was a lie. My cousin accompanied me in the car, so I wasn't exactly alone..but who cares, I was the one who drove!



I was so nervous leading up to the Friday night when I made my way to my cousin's house in Shah Alam to pick her up and we drove back to Penang that night. Shahrul told me to get Red Bull or Livita (have never touched those in my entire life) cause he was worried I might fell asleep or something.

Pfft he's got so little faith in me.

But nonetheless, I finished half a can of Red Bull and I wasn't sleepy at all! We stopped once at Sungai Perak to fill up the gas tank and that was it cause the traffic at the R&R was horrible. You hear all these horror stories about traffic during Raya season and wondering if these people are just trying to scare you off..well, this is the first time I ever witness it.

But still, managed to reach home at 2 am on Saturday morning, with Mum at the front door waiting for us. Bliss.

Anyway, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI :) I humbly apologize for my wrongdoings; intentionally or not, in person or through this blog.

May you have a wonderful Raya. As for me, I've been avoiding that weight scale my Mum purposely keeps in my wardrobe.

My long-lost bestfriend came back for Raya!!


OMG, it's been so long since I last saw her. She got married after we graduated last year and been working in Japan with her husband ever since (yes, they're the power couple - both working with Japanese companies in Japan, which concept I still find hard to comprehend) and Jua and me working in Malaysia so this is the first time the three of us got together ever since..AAJ years. That's like, 5 years.

I swear I almost cried. But decided not to cause these two would tease me to no end on that. Pfft.

Anyway, we met up after berbuka at 11 pm AT NIGHT - it was the first time I went out at midnight, by myself! Mum wouldn't like that, even the boyfriend was calling every one hour - not funny. Regardless the fact that the place is 7 minutes from my house.

I feel like such a grown up already.

So I came home after work, got showered, prepared for berbuka, solat, went out again. Things I do for these girls.

Jua & Jannah


I MISS YOU ALREADY :(


 LOL HAHAHAHA.

I wouldn't camwhore this much unless with these two.

I was so sad leaving AAJ for Japan 4 years ago cause it means the end of an era; but that night I felt a new kind of sad. It really hit me that we're all different now; we have commitments and it won't make it any easier for us to be the young and carefree girls again.

I foresee in future, dragging all our husbands to accompany us meeting up at McDonalds and ask them to be at another table, while us girls gossipping. Haha.

I officially broke my own tradition; blowing my own surprise. (not that I'm an expert anyway; judging from previous experience.)

He's not coming home for Raya this year, cause he has to work and saving up his annual leave. (Yes, he's one of the employee of the year) So after a few hints dropped from his side (LOL we're becoming one of those couples who aren't big on subtle) I decided to surprise him with Raya parcel this year!

Thing is, I just couldn't keep it a secret anymore cause I'm so worried he didn't get it; so I told him. Even asked him which kuih raya he wants LOL.

 Condensed milk (cause he can't live without it in his Milo, Neslo, Nescafe, everything), Maggi perencah for rendang and sambal tumis (for Raya), almond london (for Raya)

 A bunch of instant Neslo and Kopi O (for daily consume) and pineapple tart (for Raya)

 A little note featuring Kate Moss.

I didn't have a piece of paper to write, so I just used a torn page from one of the magazines lying around in my room. Though I know he'd appreciate the Kate Moss picture more than the note.

I am no relationship expert, but this whole long distance relationship thing really taught me a lot. It was different back then; we were a bunch of kids who thinks the world is ours. I've learned to be grateful with what I have now and not taking it for granted. I've learned that blessings come in a lot of ways. I've learned that I have this rock-hard side of me who can turn things around in a split second; and this soft side who'd remind me of everything good.

And I've learned that not everyone's perfect. All you've got to do now is learn and live.


OMG it's been too long since I last wear sky high heels. These days I have to run around the office blocks like a crazy woman; looking for people, getting documents, fax-ing stuff, printing out stuff - hence wearing pumps or stilettos are out of question.

But really, I miss those days in Japan when I can wear these heels out and about cause no one cares what you wear and annoy the heck out of the boyfriend. I miss those days when I get to experiment all sorts of footwear i.e. neon colored pump, knee-high boots, etc. And these Jeffrey Campbell shoes reminds me a lot of those heels I see at Shibuya 109!

But yeah, let's face it - going out to get groceries on a Sunday wearing these sky-high heels are not exactly practical. The shoes I normally wear to the office is merely inches tall, and once my colleague pointed out "how can you walk in those" lol. No really, it's not even heels!

Sometimes I wonder if I'm brave enough to take it to another level. I'm not exactly an edgy person when it comes to heels (spikes aren't my thing) but these Jeffrey Campbell shoes are eye-candies.

(As worn by Diana Rikasari)

Being a girl, I think I've been a bad example to all of my species out there..
I'm too busy nowadays to even get mani and pedi.

(If you're Basha and you don't know what that is, please Google. HAHA.)

Been waiting since last weekend to pay the nice ladies at The Nail Parlour a visit and today I just felt like I couldn't postpone any longer. I REALLY REALLY NEED TO PAMPER MYSELF TODAY.

So I booked a slot at 5 pm, went out of office at 4.30 pm, reached the place 5 mins past 5 pm and finished the whole thing just in time before berbuka. Really, the things we do for nail care.


But it's not just the nail care, actually. It feels nice to have someone taking care of your hands and feet and just sit there and enjoy the pampering! I always scrub my feet after shower, but this treatment is like no other. I wanted to ask the girl to buff my feet a bit longer though, but figured they might throw me out the door.

So yeah, this place will become my regular hangout place after this. And it's so convenient that it's close to my office, literally 15-20 minutes ok.

Anyway, had berbuka at Black Canyon Alamanda today. Not so bad, for a Thai food lover like me.



Sorry, forgot to take pictures of the food. Too hungry.

Anyway. GUESS WHO'S GETTING MARRIED??


This is the girl I've known since high school and we had been together since then even until we both graduated from university. That's most of my life already. And now that she finally found the man who'll be guiding her all through life; the one she finally put her trust on..I just couldn't be happier.

We've survived Hiroshima University together for the whole 4 years there, and I don't think I could get through all those years without her by my side. Gallivanting through Hiroshima for the Zara sale, went cycling around Saijo, graduated from Hiroshima University..she was there all along.

We planned to have berbuka together yesterday since I had a meeting at her office building, and it turns out to be bittersweet. We were both like "OMG we're a bunch of working girls already, we used to talk about lab and Japanese guys back then!" stuff like that. It was bittersweet, really. I feel like she's the one who knew all the good and bad stuff about me, and yet she's still here.

To you, just know that I'm so happy for you :) Happy entering the next wonderful phase of your life!

*tears*



Now this is just plain awesome.

I had no idea who Daphne Groeneveld was until a few hours ago upon discovering this video. She's definitely not the drop dead gorgeous model I've always had my eyes on, but she has this quality that just makes this whole ad brilliant!

Sure, there are a few silly scenes in the video that I find too OTT but I love how vintage and cute everything is. Would have preferred Natalie Portman for a Dior ad but she might won't pull off this particular ad as good as Daphne, so that counts for something.

And she's only 18!

Anyway, we have the day off for tomorrow! Can't be more thankful for working in this particular state of the country (Selangor) since KL doesn't get the privilege to celebrate Nuzul Quran public holiday (those working in KL, HAHA) cause after a few weeks of crazy hectic work, getting a day off on a Monday is awesome.

Finally watched it.


Housemate said she didn't get the whole story, so I spent my last Sunday re-watching the first and second Batman movies prior to watching this one. AND IT TRULY MAKES IT SO MUCH BETTER! If you're yet to drag your asses to the cinema for this, try having reruns of Batman just for the sake of satisfaction. Makes it soo much better.

Berbuka with a dear friend who I've not seen for quite some time, and we had long meaningful talk that night.

At Madam Kwan's.

This is a rant on relationships.

If there's one thing I couldn't accept in a relationship, it's cheating. It has always been that; I always thought it will be one thing I'll never forgive and my philosophy would be to be strong and not forgive and move on. But when it happens in real life (albeit not in my relationship) and I happen to witness it, I came to realize that it's never that easy. Forgive and stay? Not forgive and move on?

Easier said than done, woman.

I'm lucky to have never been cheated on; even my then relationships or current. (Or at least, none that I know of and was spared the hurt!) But I guess that's why I had never understood the pain; I thought letting go and moving on are easy. He cheated, surely you're thinking you must deserve better than that. Surely you want someone better. But truth is, sometimes love oversees all that. And that's when you thought forgiving is all there is.

I really don't get guys who cheat on their girlfriends. Flirting is inevitable sometimes; regardless in what form, but it still is distinguishable from cheating, right? What defines the boundary anyway? Does flirting permittable when they're in a relationship?

I believe that if you want to be with another person, then come clean. Don't leave relationships hanging, it's the worst thing you could do. Islam even gives the privilege to wives whose husbands take off and abandon them to break free from the marriage tie, meaning they have the right to deserve someone better.

I've had occasions when I was accused of cheating; and it was actually based on me replying messages of someone I thought of as a friend. But what they didn't know is, my other half knew about it. So is that considered cheating? I think not. But different people have different opinions, and we can't live to everyone's expectation.

But one thing I know is, if I ever came across a guy cheating on one of my friends, I won't hesitate to punch him in the face.

And this is officially a 1.30 am rant on relationships.

P/S : Guys who spend 89% of their time correcting the girlfriends' grammar are annoying, too. Just for the record.

So I know I've told you we have a new guy in the apartment, and this is to show you I wasn't lying.


We love him to bits I even took him to my bedroom. Hehe. Not many people have that privilege ok?!

Basically, I spend time with him the most in our house. My housemates come home really late everyday (like, what the hell are you guys doing so late in the office?? Me, on the other hand, reach office so early that I can't be bothered to stay there too long.) so it's always me and him in the evening and sometimes my other housemates when she comes home earlier than usual. (too many housemates in a sentence, I know. Bear with me.)

It's weird having a rabbit as a pet. Unlike kittens, they don't make noise at all; so you're left with nothing to communicate with them. This guy likes water and my work pants and my towel cause he chews on them ALL THE TIME. Whatever, as long as he doesn't chew me, I'm good.





Sighh. We love him so much, sometimes we even have to take turns to cuddle with him. Such a lucky guy.

Makes me wanna have a kitten even more :( 

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