With love

Ok so this is the latest guilty pleasure of mine.

Watching With Love, Meghan series on Netflix.

Gosh it is the most self-absorbed series ever, besides the Kardashians, but it is the most soothing self-absorbed series in the world.

Like, I want every bit of her life - forget the Birkin bag because why do you want that when you could have 

A dreamy homey house filled with white creamish furniture and greens and a dedicated craft space in a whole other building

A whole other greenhouse filled with flowers and plants

A backyard garden full of flowers like orchids and lilies and herbs like basil and rosemary and veggies such as lettuces and carrots 

A quaint little town where you can get up early and bring your guests to the market to get fish to cook for dinner

House near a beach where you can set up some beach chairs by the sea to serve your friends some homemade apple pies

Ohhh!!!! An orchard full of apples you have no idea what to do with the apples you decided to make apple jams to give as presents to family and friends

It must be crazy to live a life like that. My dream life. Why the hell did I move to the metropolitan city of Tokyo I have no idea.

But I know for now I feel some sense of accomplishment when I managed to solve some issues regarding cross-discipline engineering work. I feel like I have done something for the team when I get the “thank you for being here” smile and nod from my boss. I feel like I achieved my goal of the day when I managed to close out some technical memo after some gruelling discussions with the engineers. I feel content even in the train full of strangers after a day at work, lost reading my ebook in my phone knowing I’ll be reunited with my kids for dinner soon.

And that’s also another life I dream of, for now. I believe in manifesting and dreaming, so there might come a day, one day, that I get to own an orchard of my own, but Tokyo would have to do for now.