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What I did on my birthday

I just turned 29 recently!

And here's the summary of my first day as a 29 year old, with a husband and a kid :

Pre-birthday celebration dinner

The night before my birthday, husband took me to this steakhouse restaurant overlooking KLCC, where we celebrated our anniversary before we got married 2 years ago. 

We were lucky because there weren't too many people at the time, and it was just getting dark. I spotted this place where we were seated 2 years ago, and told the waiter that we'd have the table.

Nothing quite like reminiscing your life just before you got married, and now that you have a family - albeit a small one - it's hard to wrap your head around it. 

I was sitting there, 2 years ago, completely smitten by the then fiancé as that was the first time we've ever been to a posh place for celebration dinner. Did not even crossed my mind that I'd be sitting in the same spot 2 years later - with a kid!

Don't know how I get here, but at this stage of my life, there's nothing in the world would make me happier.

Got home to cuddle this boy a little more.

Family day out

The next day (on my birthday), Shahrul took us out for our family outing - a 2-hour facial session for me and a play class at Gymboree for Rayyan. I was skeptical at first to leave Rayyan all alone with him, but he said he'd be fine. He even took Rayyan to have waffles while he entertained him and read some books in between. Don't know he survived that!

I have the awesome-st husband ever.

Done with pampering myself and back to entertaining my kid. (Kept texting Shahrul during massage to ask him about Rayyan, even asked him to send me videos of him. Hashtag clingy mother.)

Look who's so happy running around in play class?

At the end of the day, I came to a conclusion that I'd choose this time spent with my baby over 2-hour pampering session anytime. When I see him smile, laugh and play so happily like this, I felt an instant guilt leaving him for 2 hours - those 2 hours, I could never get back.

I've never thought of myself as maternal, but this boy changed my life 360 degrees you have no idea.

Motherhood is so weird.

And that's the 29 year old me talking.


  1. Lol, separation anxiety much? :D Rayyan is such a big boy now!

    1. Haha I guess in this case it's the mommy having separation anxiety lol.

      Kannnnn! Where did all the time goooo :(


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