my labor partner

When I was counting hours and minutes to deliver Rayyan, I remember very little about what happened - the contractions were crazy and I didn't take epidural to help ease the pain.

Still, I remember Shahrul was frantic next to me, his one hand holding mine and another holding air zamzam/kurma/gas; whichever the nurses told him to give me at the right moment. 

I remember he was very calm despite knowing what would happen, or maybe it's just his default face. 

But I remember that while nothing of this help ease the contractions, I was relieved that he's around.

At the hospital after delivering Rafiy, waiting for the nurse to check us out. Obviously he's not the one having the contractions just a few hours before -_-

Second pregnancy : My labor story part II

(Read part I here.)

So the nurse, after telling me to settle down (because I was "only 3 cm dilated" T.T) went out of the labor room.

Husband was at the reception to submit my admission form.

Suddenly I felt completely alone, dealing with the mega contraction somewhere below my belly. Took a look around - and realized that it was the same labor room I had delivering Rayyan! Haha. Contraction was undeniably more painful than before - thought I'd have the strength to tahan this time around after experiencing it firsthand the last time, but this time, I really felt as if I was going to die. There's no way I could endure this, I thought.

So before the nurse go, I asked her,

"Saya nak epidural, boleh ke?"

And she gave me a face.

Second pregnancy : my labor story

Realized I've been procrastinating on this for quite a while now (compared to the first pregnancy).

Shouldn't be that long, don't worry. There won't be 3 parts I promise, haha.

(My labor story for first pregnancy can be read here, here and here. Caution : quite long!)

So I started my leave around 2 weeks before my due date because I needed to rest and focus on labor. Having the first child around means more energy needed to entertain him too, hence I've been feeling quite lethargic for weeks, not to mention the back pain T.T

Managed to do mani pedi and had a girly day out with Jannah just a few days before I felt the contraction. Which I'm so thankful about. (When Jannah found out I delivered she freaked out, saying "thank God it wasn't during our date!" LOL)

Tips : Get the chance to do some pampering before the due date (or way earlier, if you feel like delivering sooner) because once the baby comes, there's 44 days of pantang and you'd regret seeing your nails so unkept. #truestory

he's here, part II

Finally got around to do this post.

(Life as a mom with 2 kids, you see.)

Aunties and uncles, meet my second born, Ahmad Rafiy bin Ahmad Shahrul Rezuan, delivered on 16th May 2017 at 9.39 am.

my first Fendi 2Jours

So here it is.

I've gotten myself a new bag!

Promised myself that it will be the new bag for quite a long time, this time. Well, at least until both my kids are grown enough..

Made a pact that this would be my future motivation, too, in the career and motherhood department. Turning 30 made me re-evaluate a lot of things - the goals I wanted to achieve, the lessons I've learned and now, it all still feels like a dream to me. After all the hardship, a new bag is justified, right?

(Or maybe I'm just making up reasons to get a new bag HAHA.)

But but, getting a new bag and making a big purchase are big decisions (at least to me). I needed to do a lot of research on which bag I'd like to see myself wearing in the next few years, and it wasn't easy! Too many studs would look teenage-y, too flashy a leather would look pretentious, too big, too small - turning 30 turned me into an overthinker grandma FML.

So after a longg while, after browsing my go-to forums, after consulting a few trusted people, I landed my hands on this.

Got my first Fendi Petite 2Jours.