"A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost."-Marion C. Garretty

My mum called yesterday and told me that my second sister is being submitted to hospital and has to be warded.

I was so shocked, my eyes were already teary, my hands were shaking. I couldn't breathe.

My sister and hospitals have come a long way.
She was warded several times when she was in high school, and missed almost 9 months of her Form 2 year because she had to be warded due to this stomach illness she had. I remember when I was in primary school, whenever my parents came to my class and spoke to my teacher I knew she was submitted to hospital, again. 

I was young, but I knew she had this illness that took away most of her childhood memories because she had to spend a lot of time at the hospital. I felt bad for my parents, because they went through a lot during that time, what more with coping with their work and going back and forth to the hospital, and back home. 

That's why when my mum texted me "Kak Una masuk hospital" I felt like I was having a heart attack.

But later my mum told me she was submitted to hospital because she injured her cornea, and the doctor said she has to be treated at the hospital. Injections and stuff.

I was relieved. At least I know you can't hurt your cornea that much, and her doctor didn't say it was critical.

But I can never forget the feeling I got upon hearing the news. The stomach jolting, the difficulty to breathe..it was too much.

My sister and I have never been that close. We were bestfriends, but we're better off if we don't see each other. We argue and fight a lot when we're together, but not when we're away. It's strange, yes. The weirdest relationship I've ever had.

But that doesn't mean I don't love her. I love her, but not in the way that she knows.

I guess it's true - the person you can love and hate at the same time is your sibling.

I hope she'll recover soon enough and can go back to work at her favorite place.(I know she is the happiest when she's working...pffft)
I still love you no matter what.

Sisters annoy, interfere, criticize. Indulge in monumental sulks, in huffs, in snide remarks. Borrow. Break. Monopolize the bathroom. Are always underfoot. But if catastrophe should strike, sisters are there. Defending you against all comers. - Pam Brown