To wish happy mother’s day to me!
And all mothers and future mothers, reading this.
We just got home a few days ago, after spending our Golden Week break at Hakone. It was our first time there, and we enjoyed the place quite a bit! Although I thought the pirate ship would be a hit, it was the least interesting part of the trip to the kids lol.
Celebrating mother’s day today made me reflect my motherhood journey for the last 10 years, since my firstborn turned 10 this year. Looking back, it was such a blur - if it wasn’t for the kids in the flesh in front of my eyes, I wouldn’t have believed I actually got pregnant 3 times, delivered babies 3 times, and took care of newborns 3 times, all on my own (with help from husband, of course. I’m not a superhuman)
It wasn’t easy. It was hell, I’d be honest about that. Rayfa was the easiest baby out of the 3, but one of the core memories I have from her newborn phase is me going to the kitchen to make my coffee at 10 am after just getting her to nap, and then suddenly hearing her cries. And just like that, I broke down in tears, snot and everything, thinking what did I do wrong? Why wouldn’t she just sleep, so I can have my breakfast and coffee in peace? I was just sooo exhausted. And just looking at me like that, Shahrul quickly made me sit down at the dining table, and went to attend to Rayfa, so I didn’t have to.
I just knew there is a special place in heaven for husbands who actually function as a husband and a father.
But, now, those hard memories seems like a thousand light years ago. Sometimes I feel like this life I’m living is not mine, because what do you mean I now have 2 pre-teen boys and a cheeky 4 year old girl who looks just like me and basically my twin?! It’s not all rainbows for sure, but at the end of the day, knowing I always have these 2 boys coming in my bedroom to kiss me goodnight and tell me “i love you mommy” and this little girl who can’t go to sleep unless I’m laying by her side…
Life is so unpredictable sometimes, but when the surprises come in these adorable forms, I wouldn’t have it any other way <3
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